The Lucky One

So I am a bit late on this post. However, I am still going to count it. Just technically means I will post twice tomorrow with is today.

"She was struck by the simple truth that sometimes 

the most ordinary things could be made 

EXTRAORDINARY 

simply by doing them with the 

right people"

Nicholas Sparks

Some of my favorite Books are Nickolas Sparks. I absolutely love this stories. Last Summer I found a First edition copy of THE LUCKY ONE at goodwill for $2! To me it was like the best thing ever to have a first edition even though its not that big of deal I thought it was GREAT!

At first, when the movie came out I thought I'll read the book first then see the movie. However, due to school, I ended up skipping out on the whole things. I like reading books and coming up with my own pictures of the characters and scenery before seeing the movie.

Four months later I am in goodwill with Michael and I stumble on the book. I thought I must get it now its only two bucks! Thinking to myself I probably won't read you just yet. Well I was wrong Two days Later I was glued to the book. I spend about a week reading it. I am a slow reader because I REALLY like to take the whole story in. I like to get caught up and stay there for as long as possible. I swear the story is so much better when you take time to really grasp everything the author is trying to say.

Things I learned from THE Lucky ONE
          Take time to really listen to someone and give them the chance to talk. Learning this really hit me hard because I catch myself often not listening as much as I should and trying to help fix them. Sometimes people just need to be heard.
           Our everyday life is not bad at all. We shouldn't get mad over the littlest things in life. Example the Waitress forgot your drink. Don't get all Asswhole like. Just be nice and politely reminder her. People are fighting a war right now. Risking there lives everyday for us to sit in that restaurant and have that drink. Be kind.
           To love and be honest with people. Be nice and open yourself up.
            Maybe take a walk across the states with your nothing but a backpack and your dog.

A Memory

September 17: A memory you would love to relive

 I remember this day like it was yesterday March 2009

It was a day filled with love

The weather was warm yet cool.

You held me close

We smile and walked the beach

Cartwheels and Sea shells

The closer we were the better

You kept me warm and safe

On this day we fell in love all over again.

It was spring break so we decided to adventure out the the beach. It was my first beach trip with Michael. I remember the drive there. We held hands to tightly as if we would die if one of us let go. I was driving and admiring our hands. I felt the warmed in his embraced the intensity in our connection and love. It was a day to fall in love all over again. 

These moments I miss deeply and can now only dream off. I love how this became a yearly trip in our time together. I miss all the little moments we shared with smile and kisses. 

I would relive driving to school with Marvin and Pizza Pop breaks between class. 

 

There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you

   Marvin Gay

Emotional photo

I just can't decided how to do this. Should I take a quick picture right now or Should I just pick one already taken. I do however, know I need to get a real camera!! I used to have a simple Digital Camera but its not on me right now. I want a pretty nice new one with all the cool fancy features. I cannot wait to have a job so I can finally buy a new pretty camera and take a million and one pictures.

 

 I decided to take a picture from the past. I picked this one because its one of the last extremely happy peaceful and emotional  photos I have taken. This was a particularly good time in my life where everything made sense and I was happy with myself and with my life. I had confidence in myself and in everything I was pursing in life. Most of all my heart was happy and in a perfect place.

I wanted a good happy picture of me where I am my truest self. I see this photo and see me without the secrets and sadness hidden deep in my eyes. 

This picture is peace, new beginnings, love, and pure joy for the life I am living. 

Happy Friday the 13th

Reality check Grow up

Tuesday, September 10: Describe a distinct moment when your life took a turn.

Right now my life is at a crossroads. This year I graduated from college thinking things would get easier. I thought I would have a job/real life by now. Yeah, that didn't happen. I basically spent my summer relaxing trying to figure out who I am and where I want to be in my life. I applied to a few places and have had no luck. For a while I just kind of gave up.

Labor day weekend was kind MY reality check. Seriously, what the fuck am I doing with MY life? We found out my boyfriend's brother is having a baby with his fiance. WOW new flash! They are even getting married.

Well, here is a little known fact about me. I have always wanted a little family of my own. I wanted the married life young. I wanted to be married and in the process of having a kid by the time I was 24. Today I am 24, and NOWHERE near ready for that kind of a commitment. Even after 5 years. Eventually but right now our lives are not even close to being ready.  

It was like a punch in the heart. I am going to be honest, I pretty much went home and cried the whole night....I just felt so sad because I looked at my life and realized I really have nothing going for myself. I have no job, No money, and no real foundation.

I decided right after hearing the news I need to get my life together. I need to be the mature 24 year old women I thought I would be. I realized I need to grow up and figure out my life. I can't get what I want by siting on my ass living through the eyes of others. I need to create my life. I need to make it a good one worth sharing.

Today, I end this post with my three goals this year, and for the coming years. 
           Get a job. At this point any job will do! I need money!!
           Its a dream I have decided to attempt. Get into an acting class.
           Have a family of my own.

I have many dreams and goals I want to achieve and this post is just the start of my beginning.
           

Introverted. Intuition. Feeling. Judging.

Monday, September 9: Take this short personality test and respond to your results.
 "INFJs- are there for the cause, not for personal glory or political power."

I care about others first and me last. I try to put my heart and soul into everything.
After reading over the definition of INFJ I can't help but laugh at how true these results are.

"Rescuing those who are in acute distress."  If you are locked out I will come to in the middle of the night. Trapped in Boston at 1 in the morning. Don't worry I don't need sleep for tomorrows events... Yes I will drive an hour and 20 minutes to save you from sleeping on a bench. Side note (My bf was visiting his sister. He came back with me thankfully for the drive home. Maybe a little bit of personal gain :)

"Accurately suspicious about others' motives," and Selective with my friends. Its weird and true in every interaction I have with people I meet. Particularly men I find myself questioning their behavior and motives. I can honestly say I have few friends with a smile on my face. I do not need 100 friends to be happy. I stick to a small deeply connected group of friends. I have always had difficultly in making and forming relationships with people. I am a bit guarded. When I meet a person and we click right away I try top hold onto that friendship. This tweet from Chelsea Kane pretty much defines my way of friendships. "Friendship is weird. You pick a human you've met and you're like, "Yep, I like this one" and you just do stuff with them."

I must say these results are pretty accurate. Although, I hate to admit I am judging, the results seems to fit. 

I found it most fascinating when INFJs are outgoing and take genuine interest in other it can be mistaken for extroverts. I for one really care about others. I love knowing what is happening with friends and family and try my best to be supportive. I do agree that although I love to stay up to date with people I am very selective with whom I share my own deepest thoughts and emotions. I find at time I do hide from other my inner feelings and only in times of great need do I confide in that one person.

Lastly,  I do find myself shutting down occasionally from the outside world. I reach this point typically once a week where I need a night or even a day to myself where I shut down and pretty much ignore my surroundings. Its a really interesting state I reach. I feel after much socializing my brain just needs a chance to relax this is typically when I turn to blogging or writing. Sometimes I just need to rebuild.

I really enjoyed this topic and researching the truth behind my behavior, actions, and thoughts. 

Yellow Lights and Motorcyles

Friday, September 6: A story about a time you were very afraid

 Summer of 2011 I was going through a difficult time. I was babysitting 35 hours a week long days, 8AM-7PM for a family of 5 kids 2 of them were teenage girls. While, also attending summer classes 2 days a week 12PM-4PM. The only day of rest Sunday. I seriously wanted to die by the end of the summer. To make matter worse my bf and I broke up during this time.  Summer 2011 was one of the depressing times of my life. It was hell trying to get through each day and having to deal with children just made for a very cranky sad Dannielle. I would come home at night sad and annoyed at everything and everyone.

Friday July 2, 2011
  The day from hell. It was the end of the week and all I wanted to go was home. On this particular day I was driving everywhere. To add stress to equation I had a mountain of Laundry to do for the family. Oh and did I mention one of the teens and I were having a terrible day together. Its 6:30PM and I had A HALF hour left. Then I was free for 10 hours before I had to be back the next morning. Before my temporary release I had to drive the 2 younger kids to a sleep over. I forced the older sister to come with me because she was my friend and I needed to vent.

After dropping the two little ones off we are driving home and we are ALMOST THERE!!!! TWO MILES AWAY FROM HOME!!!
WAMMM! CRASH! BANG! We get into a car accident!!! I will never forget that day. I was driving the family's car with the oldest daughter and we hit Not a car but a MAN on A Motor cycle!! Mother  Hell to the Lord. Really?!?! I have never in my whole life been so afraid.  We were okay and shockingly so was the car. I felt terrible and at that moment convinced I had just killed a man!
Thankfully I did not, he was badly banged up though. It turned out we were both at fault. A witness said it looked like he hit me. Bikes don't break well and he had to have been speeding because I did not see him over the hill before the light. But, I was still at some fault because I failed to yield at a yellow light. It was an unfamiliar intersection I did not realize how the lights worked. I guess a lot of accident happen there. To be honest it should not be a two way stop light.

Seriously have never been more afraid in my whole life. I thought I killed a man and would be going to jail. Now, given the situation the worst part was calling my mom and telling her what happen. I had been really brave mainly in shock and had not cried once! Until it was time to call mom. I still remember the feeling of utter dread trying to say the words "I got into an accident." I could feel my emotions catching up and knew  the water works were coming...

A time I was afraid....

On a lighter note due to my lack of money flow I had NOT renewed my License at the time so the very nice cop had to drive the car to remove it from traffic. I had to sit in back and wait for someone with a license to get the car. So embarrassing!!!

Things I learned
No you will not go to jail.
Yes you need to have an update license
Check double check and triple CHECK all intersection before turning left
If you Do ride a Motorcycle Please be cool and wear a helmet!!!!!

Open Mind Open Heart

Day 3. Pass on some useful advice or information you learned and always remembered. 

~Be open minded with everything and more specifically every person you meet~

For Christine and Norman

I say this because to many people are quick to judge, quick to disregard an idea or a person. In this situation I am talking about people. Human are naturally leveling themselves up to one and other. We think of ways we are better then someone else whether it be out of jealousy, insecurity, or just being ignorant. We all want the best for our loved ones and sometimes we don't agree with THEIR LIFE choices or people they choice to include in THEIR lives. 

People want the best for their children. However, when your 24 year old daughter has been with the same guy for 8 years, it might be time you take a step back. Open your mind and your heart because this Man is the ONE. My best friend has been in a bi-racial relationship for the past 8 years. High school sweethearts! Her dad has never liked or agreed to the relationship because he was Black! :(  As result, the relationship was kept from her father. Until recently, when they decided to move forward in there relationship. "Time to tell Daddy"....well he was not okay with it and at this point has pushed his daughter away almost completely.

I cannot help but be so sadden by this situation. I met Norman my freshman year of high school and immediately he became one of my best friends. He is the most loyal, sincere, and  generous friend I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. Norman has always been there for me when I needed a friend or a big scary black man to save me from a possible Craig's list creeper. What I love Most about Norman is he treats my best girlfriend right! For the last 8 years he has been a dedicated boyfriend to Christine. In 8 years they have never broken up, never left each other and NEVER cheated. They have a real connection and love each other to death.  Who wouldn't want a good guy like Norman for their daughter. 

Why can't you be as happy for her as I am...?

Today's advice stop judging people and get to know someone. Open your mind and heart because you never know who you are missing out on knowing or even loving. Just because he is black doesn't mean he isn't good enough for you daughter. He is the best for your daughter. 

Just because you are black doesn't mean you have no future. 
Just because you have Tattoos and Piercing doesn't make you scum. 

Love this Picture

I come from-family.

Welcome to my blog I am hoping to gain some new reader and hopefully you all will like what I have to say...

Tuesday, Sept. 3: Describe where or what you come from. The people, the places, and/or the factors that make up who you are

  I come from a big Italian Family so we are loud and holidays are kind of a big deal. Seriously, It is not Thanksgiving without sitting at the table with my family and having my cousin Tony next to me. 

Family table. Tony in Strips keeping out seats.

My Grandparents are my idols  who are still married to this day, They one of the only couples I know who still love each other to death. My grandpa would do anything for my grandma and I appreciate the time I get to spend with them more then anything. I love watching as my grandpa takes care of my gram. She has a few health issues and grandpa is always by her side. Its amazing to see that kind of deep love.


In my family everyone body knows everyone's business and well I love it! Being that its a family of TEN. My grandparents and there 8 children plus there children, there is plenty of gossip to go around. Now being that we are all close we do have our typically tiffs. HOWEVER, No matter what we are always there for one and other. IF someone is in the Hospital well you can bet there will be a party. Even if its for stitches.
 We all show up!

My grandpa is the heart and soul of the family and keeps us all in line. I have nothing but respect for that man. He is the most genuine man I have ever had to the pleasure to sit with and share life. In our family you respect the elders. Never would I talk back to him. Side note he does not like swearing and well I have a truckers mouth. Hes funny thought, always somehow turns the check when I drop the F bomb. He cares so deeply for each of his children and all ever wants to do is provide for them everything he can. Hes is such a sweet man I could not ask for a better grandpa.

Grandpa <3

Now, the most important women in my life is my mother. She is my Rock, Best friend, and most of open to the person I am. She has always been my number one. I seriously have no idea where I would be in life If It wasn't for her. She is the strongest toughest women I know. She will fight for anything she wants and she will succeed.  She doesn't take disrespect from anyone and she will be herself even if others don't agree. Once she sets her heart on something she follows through. I love the passion she has in life to achieve many of her goal and deepest disires. I wish to be just like her someday. 
 

My Best friend

This is my life and where I come from. We work hard to make ourselves happy. If you are in trouble you call and we are right there. No matter what we will drop whatever we are doing to be by your side. 

We stick together. Most of all we respect.